Can people change?

Cloudy and rainy...the perfect kind of weather for me! Not exactly sure why...perhaps it is the sound or the smells...or the distant likening of all that's going on inside. Everytime I light up or snort, I say never again. As was the scenario last night. But the baby faced man upstairs laughed and reminded me how dependant on the crystal I am. I don't believe that people really change all that much. After changes upon changes, we are more less the same. And I feel like fighting would be worthless at this point. I lost my best friend in a lie...might as well let it completely consume me.