God, are u listening?

Today if u were to measure how ultra hot the surface of the sun is, I would most likely be the thermometer that u might use. I am so busted-not broken, BUSTED! I am finding little pieces of myself in pools of anger and lonliness and shame. I don't know if I can make it thru tonight...I've never felt this kind of hurt before. Please, Father, if u are around and u do love me, then please, just sit here with me. I am sooo scared right now. And send me a hand. Please, this time, I won't throw it back.